I got a message on Facebook from Youngest Bro today. He told me I was just like my father; going to jail and cheating on Ex-wife. That really hurt down to my core. I don't know him that well; if at all. He's passing judgement based on what others have told him about me I understand he's still at an impressionable age and believes everything his mother tells him. I was the same way. I hope that once he's mature enough to make his own decisions he asks for my side of things so he can make an informed decision based on facts, not hearsay.
Other than that, things have been alright. I'm having a hard time adjusting to life in secondary. It's hard going from an extremely structured environment to a more laid-back structure. I think I'll be fine once I'm able to gt out and look for a job.
I'm worried about my mental stability right now. I only had one manic episode in primary, but have already had tow in six days of secondary. I really need to talk to my shrink and see if he thinks my meds need to be changed. I'm freaking out just thinking about it. Could I be suffering from anxiety too? It seems very possible and would be a logical explanation to some of my social awkwardness.
Lots of self-doubt and self-pity. Nothing else to see here...move along.
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